Cancel the whoo and pack away the hoo...

[byslantedlight]

...my wallet has sodding well been lost and/or stolen - and really the latter cos I know exactly almost to the second when it must have gone, and the petrol station says there's no sign of it, and there was a car right behind me waiting which can't really have failed to see me drop it, and they didn't hand it in...and... and...

So just many many bad words, and cancelled banks cards, and I'd just drawn out £50 - fifty whole pounds - and had loads of stamps in there, and... and... my driver's license, and all my store cards and bookshop cards which effectively had money on them, and... oh, just waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

And the worst thing is that I really can't think it's been anything but stolen (granted from my own carelessness - and I'm usually so careful of it...) because there's just no where else in between the moment of paying for petrol/tucking it under arm when I put petrol cap back on and my realising it was gone that it could have been - and no way else that it wouldn't have been handed in already when someone found it...

So now it's all that horrible sick feeling when you know that a) you've done something stupid, and b) someone has proven yet again that human beings are selfish nasty creatures from under rocks.

And I still have all that work to do. Just... waaaaaah (and sorry for the whinge, but... waaaaaah...) That'll teach me. I'd told myself that of course I could spare 3 hours out of about 16 to not work and to go and see The Mocking Jay with a friend, and if only I hadn't done that and hadn't stopped for petrol, and hadn't... you know, been born... *sighs and sobs a bit more*

/whinge, honest, but... just one more waaah....

Remind me that there's anything good in the world...?

Attempted list of good things in world
- going to cinema with a friend
- getting my passport back (and it being too big to fit into my wallet...)
- erm...

Comments

[ariss-tenoh.livejournal.com]

It's a loss but at least it wasn't any harm done to your person. And having re-read my comment, I hope it didn't sound
condescending as that wasn't the intention.

[byslantedlight.livejournal.com]

Oh, no I didn't think you sounded condescending at all - I really honestly did think that's the proper way to look at it, and so true. It's not the end of the world - I said to someone above that it's nothing like being lost at sea because you've been thrown out of your own home due to someone else's war and have lost everything except what you can carry with you, and it really isn't... The feel of it is just so out of proportion to what actually happened - a bit of lost money and inconvenience. Okay, I can't really afford to lose £50+, but I can afford it a hell of a lot better than someone who's unemployed, and only has £55 to their name... It is the kicking yourself about having done something wrong that's the worst thing.... but really, I'm apparently always doing something or other wrong anyway, so even that's not the newest thing under the sun..!

All of which rambling is to say - my first reply held, you're completely right, and what you said is absolutely the right way to think of it!