Cancel the whoo and pack away the hoo...
Saturday, 19 December 2015 05:48 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
byslantedlight...my wallet has sodding well been lost and/or stolen - and really the latter cos I know exactly almost to the second when it must have gone, and the petrol station says there's no sign of it, and there was a car right behind me waiting which can't really have failed to see me drop it, and they didn't hand it in...and... and...
So just many many bad words, and cancelled banks cards, and I'd just drawn out £50 - fifty whole pounds - and had loads of stamps in there, and... and... my driver's license, and all my store cards and bookshop cards which effectively had money on them, and... oh, just waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
And the worst thing is that I really can't think it's been anything but stolen (granted from my own carelessness - and I'm usually so careful of it...) because there's just no where else in between the moment of paying for petrol/tucking it under arm when I put petrol cap back on and my realising it was gone that it could have been - and no way else that it wouldn't have been handed in already when someone found it...
So now it's all that horrible sick feeling when you know that a) you've done something stupid, and b) someone has proven yet again that human beings are selfish nasty creatures from under rocks.
And I still have all that work to do. Just... waaaaaah (and sorry for the whinge, but... waaaaaah...) That'll teach me. I'd told myself that of course I could spare 3 hours out of about 16 to not work and to go and see The Mocking Jay with a friend, and if only I hadn't done that and hadn't stopped for petrol, and hadn't... you know, been born... *sighs and sobs a bit more*
/whinge, honest, but... just one more waaah....
Remind me that there's anything good in the world...?
Attempted list of good things in world
- going to cinema with a friend
- getting my passport back (and it being too big to fit into my wallet...)
- erm...
So just many many bad words, and cancelled banks cards, and I'd just drawn out £50 - fifty whole pounds - and had loads of stamps in there, and... and... my driver's license, and all my store cards and bookshop cards which effectively had money on them, and... oh, just waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
And the worst thing is that I really can't think it's been anything but stolen (granted from my own carelessness - and I'm usually so careful of it...) because there's just no where else in between the moment of paying for petrol/tucking it under arm when I put petrol cap back on and my realising it was gone that it could have been - and no way else that it wouldn't have been handed in already when someone found it...
So now it's all that horrible sick feeling when you know that a) you've done something stupid, and b) someone has proven yet again that human beings are selfish nasty creatures from under rocks.
And I still have all that work to do. Just... waaaaaah (and sorry for the whinge, but... waaaaaah...) That'll teach me. I'd told myself that of course I could spare 3 hours out of about 16 to not work and to go and see The Mocking Jay with a friend, and if only I hadn't done that and hadn't stopped for petrol, and hadn't... you know, been born... *sighs and sobs a bit more*
/whinge, honest, but... just one more waaah....
Remind me that there's anything good in the world...?
Attempted list of good things in world
- going to cinema with a friend
- getting my passport back (and it being too big to fit into my wallet...)
- erm...
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Date: Saturday, 19 December 2015 10:59 pm (UTC)Poor you, that's something anybody could do without. Crossing my fingers and toes that you get it back.
Maybe as a christmas present.
Good thoughts coming your way, my shout of joy today was tremendous, I got a book in the mail!
One written by BSL!!! Imagine that! And such a wonderful card to go with it and it's got a gold backing and the words inside, the story, the love, the togetherness - just. Really - just SO wonderful!
And happy greetings from the other Mauses, Mr. Maus feels very sorry, too, he is big in beating himself up over stupid things, so can almost imagine how you feel.
The little Maus is asleep, but she was very excited about the letter earlier and wanted to open it. And wants mail, too. When I told her, that it helps a lot to write and sent something first, she was quite dissapointed, she is such a lazy writer. *g*
And more happy thoughts:
Candles and kittens and puppies and books! Walks at the beach, driftwood and making boats. Wonderful stones and the sea, the freedom to think what you want and to be able to talk with friends and family. Hot tea, a warm cosy room, soft pillows and books. The amazing thing words are. Put together numbers, that adds up, putting together letters and to get so many different words, and meanings and putting them together into love and understanding and togetherness, so much more!!!
I wish you a peaceful evening, that work goes quick and easy and a wonderful good night!
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Date: Sunday, 20 December 2015 01:01 am (UTC)POh, and I do like your good thoughts... *g* Post - yeay! And greetings to all the Mauses - sorry that Mr Maus is having a lousy time though, that's not fair...
Heeee for Little Maus being a lazy writer but wanting post anyway - that made me giggle! How fun that she was excited about the letter, too... and lucky there wasn't anything easily-accessible-naughty in it (I don't think...!), just in case!
Ohhh for walks on the beach too - d'you know I've been in the mood for the beach and the waves and wild winter wind across the sea for days now... Soft pillows and books are imminent though (I've just finished the first big job - well mostly) and am about to go to bed... *g*) And words! Love words... even the non-fiction ones that I proofread, I wouldn't be without really... Funny, this big job is all about people learning English, and it makes me want to learn another language again... maybe I should try to get back to Russian again!
Thank you for peaceful evenings - I put the Christmas tree lights on, and my wee star lights, and my blossom lights, and I made my favourite childhood comfort food for dinner, and I had a gin and tonic with lime - and that all definitely helped, as did reading nice comments here on lj... thank you! *g* Now I shall go to bed with the wind gusting around the buildings outside, and curl up for a bit with some Prosfic... *g*